How can I try to explain
Cause when I do she turns away again
It's always been the same old story Toni turning away.

I dont hate her for that, I just ??????

All the times that I cried, keeping all the things I knew inside It's hard, Toni made me cry.

I`LL MISS YOU, "YOU BITCH!", I`LL MISS YOU SO FCKIN BAD.

RIP U

HURTS YOU NOT BEING HERE TONI.

I wanna write 'I miss you' I'll miss you so much.

Antonia's Choice of friend`s on msn or "Skype" was to my knowledge very very interesting, I have some very personal letters sent to me by Antonia, "she was unique!"

I know this will shock many of her friends. I've known about Antonia`s illness for some time, sometime an extra ear is welcome and helpful we talked on the phone all the time, but at this point I'm very open and listened to her every word.
She was chaos and beauty intertwined. A tornado of roses.

"You would never know that she was going to leave us like she did, she kept it very close to her real friends,"

This is a dark day and she will be mourned by her friends all over the world and remembered forever.

She has left this life and gone to the next but has left a million raindrops of love.
"I love and miss you. A million times I needed you a million times I cried. If love alone could have saved you, you never would have died."

I just want to talk to you, not about anything in particular, just talk. I miss you,.you are my best friend.
It will never change,my soul mate. I love you with all of my heart!.
My Prayers Are With You! Here's the truth for you and your friends, I know you've felt like the one who had to protect everyone else for a long time, but please know that you are not alone.
Kirsteen is at her lowest point and she has nothing left. Here's how it works. The changes in roads for Kirsteen, We all cared way too much about you.
To be successful, we have to be people who make things happen, what was it you quoted in the conference room? Quote "What you do every day is what determines what you'll be remembered for!", Then you turned around to Emma and you said Quote "Make it happen girl."
This place will fall apart without you Toni. We are all gutted and i`m writing this with tears in my eyes!

RIP GIRL

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Growing up in your area must have been hard Toni, The experience was just as new for me as it would have been for anyone else. It seems, in an odd way, Skype has never been so lonely, you always kept yourself isolated from everyone.
I don't think anyone else could have understood what you was going through!, There are more important things than other people's feelings, You always put others first!

It was as strange for me as it was for anyone else who got to know you so well, i found myseld always looking forward to seeing you, you was such an awesome person and i will miss you too.
Thank you so much for the opportunity you gave me to be with you, you always new what you wanted and why you're doing it.

Missin U

xx

Antonia has left the bulk of her estate to Emma,



she has had "the best send-off ever". Thank you for being the greatest friend ever. The night ended with a song from Kirsteen, singing white dawg remix.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=03I8CNtigkk

“Here you go Keyra!", I don't encourage people to talk about their illness, unless they want to, Plus she wasn't that into you anyway. Whether that's talking about how good of a friend you think you are to her.
When I confronted her about it she said she said not to worry my little head off, Did she actually say what was wrong with her? , Well of course she did because you're not stupid; an you knew exactly what you wanted from her DIDNT YOU.
Sorry to drop the bomb on you but your scum Keyra, She did exactly what you wanted her to do! "DIDNT SHE!", She was your Quote "smurfer,", Your nothing but a Fraudster. You had her laundering money for you and that boyfriend of yours.
That's EXACTLY what I wanted to say!!! ;)

Damn! I just love her and anyone she was associated with. I don't know about all that other crap.

Remember
 

Thankyou for everything you did for me & my family!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ivbO3s1udic

your song, being gay you struggled to cope, but you was always caring, loving and special.

That`s who you became, a shadow of your mother, caring! Just one more thing?

You told me time and time again!? that you was born to love me :) thankyou! because i love you too!

goodbye my hunny! so special!