What is "normal"?
You have a problem. So do many other men, and more than a few women.
I am a father and a grandfather, and I still, after almost 60 years, get myself into an occasional awkward situation, due to my attraction to the female anatomy. Evolution has provided the vast majority of men with an insatiable curiosity in women's sex parts from an early age. My earliest memory of this is from kindergarten, followed by third grade, when I crossed a line, legally, and got away with it because I was such a nice boy, with a sterling reputation.
I won't go into details about all the things I did/tried on the way to where I am, but if anyone thinks I have acted like a pervert, they should see what has been, and still is, in my mind. I have never seen anything in pornography that I haven't already thought about on my own, probably years earlier. When I tried going to a psychiatrist after almost crossing a RED line, they told me I was normal and accused me of making up the things I was telling them went through my mind to shock them. Obviously they WERE shocked and in disbelief, and missed the point. I was NOT making up any of the things I talked about, and I was just getting started.
What is "normal"? What is "pervert"? On the outside I am normal to the point of appearing almost saintly. On the inside I am much worse than a pervert, to the point where people cannot accept what they are hearing/seeing when it is shown to them. Their minds go blank and they go into denial.
As I said, you DO have a problem, but it is a matter of the extremes you are going to to satisfy your hunger.
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