I'm just recently discovered that might be something close to bi, I'm not sure. But it's not actual male that interests, it's just the idea and fantasies, but in real life, I wouldn't get much kicks from men. It's just in cuckold fantasy that if you let it go, you fantasize those black men fuck you against your will and since it's so so so wrong, it makes you very horny. I haven't found right kind of domina to really play that role change, forced feminization, sissification etc. yet, but I have been bottom couple of times for a shemale.
What I've noticed, is that I don't really need that real dick. I need to be dominated, ridiculed, verbally humiliated - that's the idea, and after that comes the physical part. Only thing woman and strapon can't give from the real thing for me is climax. It makes you feel horny and cheap when you are being fucked and making someone to cum. But that's mostly mental part also, just the idea.
So for surely I'm not gay, and I'm not 100% if I'm bi or just bi-curious. I don't actually like men at all, never watch gay porn. When in the mood, get excited fantasizing being forced to turn into woman. Have played with own ass many times and have enjoyed it. Those times when the real thing was involved, it missed something - and I would think it's just the feeling that I'm searching - feeling of being the slut who gets fucked, being forced into a girl and even enjoying it. That's missing so actual sex does not really feel too special. So my conclusion is that maybe I'm just bi-curious with fantasies of role change, humiliation and submission.
I don't know what that makes me, and I don't really care either - I let myself be what I feel and what I want.
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